No Beat No More

Have you ever been so heartbroken that you became heartless?

Never would I have guessed it possible, but it is.

I’ve had my fair share of heartbreaks, but this; this was far beyond I could imagine!

They say we need sorrow to feel joy.

I had the opposite. I had the most joyous relationship, followed by the most sorrow I knew.

For the last four months since it ended. I have had no heart beat.

O how fast is would beat when he would look at me with those so soft loving light brown eyes! One touch and my heart would dance! The whole time I was with him, my heart would beat so fast I was sure that it would dance right outta me! But since it ended, I have no beat no more.

I try to feel it; I put my hand on my chest hoping to feel the thump thump. But I feel nothing.

Without this man, I have become listless and life has left my eyes.

After such a soul mate’s love, that wasn’t meant to be, I wonder, how will I feel again? Will my heart beat again? How can I ever love again?

I try so hard to listen in silence for the thump thump it should make, but all I hear is the silence.