Adam LaManticheli

How do I say goodbye to yesteryear?

In my eyes we had the most perfect love. An infinite love. One that was better than you ever could dream of.

One look from Adam and my breath stops in my chest and for a moment I cant breathe. Just one sound of his voice or his whistling and I feel myself floating on air. Just seeing the name Adam and a smile instantly comes upon my face. One touch from him and stars enter my eyes.

We had it so great! But now its over. Never to be the same again and gosh dang it I wish it would. I gave him my whole heart and soul and it's his to keep.

This is so wrong! How can such an infinite and pure love not be meant to be? How is it that we were not good enough for the other? How is that possible? Turns out it is possible. I get so angry because it is only one reason we are not meant to be. That's it, just one. Despite that though, Adam was so right for me in every other way! I feel that if I can't have him, I can't be with anyone else. I don't want anyone else, I just want him. I would wait a lifetime to be his once again. I tell myself lies like he doesn't want me, he's moved on, he didn't really love me, it was all an act, it was all a lie, he never cared about me, to him I am dead, etc. I hope that by telling myself these horrible lies, will help me get over him and move on. But truth be told, it doesn't help and I never will stop loving Adam LaManticheli!!! Nor do I want to!


Adam, I'm so eternally sorry that I hurt you, my pumpkin and my love!

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